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Compassion Will Kill You

I’ve read other poetry books by Adrian Bouvier before, (though apparently I never wrote something on Drown, whoops). But anyway, when I saw he had another book on Amazon I had to buy it.


This one was a lot harder to get through than the last ones, since this deals more with parental abuse, guilt, mental health, drug use, and death. Bouvier has both a detached and a striking way of approaching these subjects, and it hits painfully.



I think Stag was my favorite. Reading it, it has a rhythm evocative of being chased, of an inescapable feeling of running from something, running from everything you’ve screwed up.

Sweet Things:





(And, without pics)

Don’t Come Home:

“they say that good men go to war and don’t ever

come back. they say good men go to war.
they say that good men don’t come home from war.
they say good men go to war, and while they’re there
one of two things will happen:

1. that good man will die, or
2. a different man will come back home in a body
3. that once belonged to a good man.

you came back, if you can come back from home,
in a hollow thing. with a hollow thing. as a hollow thing
like a skin you can’t get rid of. the war found a place inside
you to hide and now it’s wearing the good man’s face
you used to own. and you are the hollow thing. you are hollow.

good men do not come home from war.

they say good men go to war. they say bad men
start wars and good men go to them, because it is right.
because that’s where they need to be. you never went.
you never went. you just got born right here. you were born
with a gunshot splintering you out of the womb. you
were born like a bomb out of the belly of a jet. you’ve
been at war your whole life. you’ve been a war
you’re whole life.

you are not the good man who came to this war. he died there.
he died somewhere in between not being able to cry anymore
and that third month in the trench when he shot a man rather than
let him linger. when you learned what mercy is when mustard gas
is involved and he learned he wasn’t good anymore.

they say good men in love go to war and one of three things
will happen:

1. that good man in love will die, or
2. that man in love will die, or
3. that love will die.

and they’re right. nothing stays the same in war.
nothing survives the men’s slaughterhouse that ground
becomes, and especially not love. it gets twisted up,
gets all strange when you sleep on it, creases folded in,
memories faux-gilded in light of all that gore. even
sinning love. even love illegally gained and kept.

you can put that sinning love in your mouth and chew it
into a different shape, a new kind of awful: nobody cares
in a trench. nobody goddamn cares in a trench.

no good man comes back from a war. nothing good
comes back from a war.

good men start wars and good men die in wars and
good men get lost.”

If this sounds like your kind of thing, check it out on Amazon.

Check out the rest of my posts about poetry here.

A C Team Fandom Round-Up

More fic/art/fandom recs for The C Team!

(Have no idea what I’m talking about? check out this post)

(If you’d like me to remove references/links to your stuff, just let me know.)

Fic Recs:

Walnut’s Nightmare by crwscribbler

(T, Gen, Walnut, blood, scratching, nightmare, panic, burning, body horror?)

Rosie, Queen of Thorns by crwscribbler

(T, Gen, Rosie, Donaar, fighting, blood, mention of injuries, stealing)

Former street fighter Rosie? Heck yeah! I love your Donaar, too!

A Walnut Fanfic by lucentbaguettes and thriceinatrice

(T, Walnut/Brahma, Enemies/Lovers dynamic, embarrassment)

Includes art, fanfic, and pretty songs via Soundcloud! Nice!

Fanmusic Recs:

The C Team Playlist by jamesroachmusic

(Donaar’s Theme is PERFECT)

All Vampires Must Die by melmanlite

(That classic rock song by Acq Inc B Team)


C_team_slashfic’s twitter

a Wiki recently started by Melodykat

Cleric Confessor, the fanart/fandom-inspired creations hub
(Submissions encouraged!)

and of course, all the animated shorts by the magnificent Zeebashew

Woooo, awesome fandom creations! Waaatch C Teaaaaam!


Fic Rec (C Team- Walnut x Brahma)


Her Dreams are Haunted by Those Folks

(Teen, Gen and F/F, Walnut/Brahma, mild gore, death, blood, animal death, the worst creepy crawly things, also spoilers for the Doomgate Inn)

More C Team fic, wooooo!

(Have no idea what I’m talking about? check out this post)

The cast are so super supportive about slash/fandom creativity, which I love.

Also, to the author known as Those Folks: highest of fives on being the people who took the risk and made such good fic. (If you want me to take down the links to your work, though, let me know.) There needs to be more C Team fic in the world, and I hope I can get around to writing some of it, too.

Fic Rec (C Team- Rosie x Welver)


Rosie Fucks (Part 1) by Those Folks

(Explicit/NSFW, F/M, Rosie/Welver, slightly kinky)

Oh. My…
This is AMAZING.
I support this, and I love this.
*slams fists on table* Watch C Teaaaaam!

(Have no idea what I’m talking about? check out this post)

there’s also some meta about Rosie here

(and and they’re gonna write some kinky kept boy K’thriss fic!!!
I’m gonna die!!!
I’m so pumped!!!)

so you want to watch nerds play d&d… (1)

From long series, to short series, to one-offs, with both new and old players…there’s toooooons of tabletop roleplaying game content to choose from on Youtube.

Today, I want to talk to you about the recent game I’ve been watching/listening to:

Acquisitions Incorporated: The “C” Team

This tabletop Dungeons & Dragons game is a spin-off of Acq Inc- but if you know nothing about that, this is totally the cool place to start. Basically, Acq Inc is/was a D&D podcast started by a group of gamers/artists/writers/D&D players, and the premise was that a group of adventurers started a company to collect loot. The idea of The “C” Team is that a brand new group of adventurers has been hired by this company, for a “Secret Purpose” that has not yet been revealed. You can check out more lore info at acq-inc.com.

The episodes are currently posted on PennyArcade’s Youtube channel, and they run about 2.5 to 3 hours long. (As of posting this, there are 6 episodes. Episodes are livestreamed every Thursday and posted Friday/Saturday).

For a highlights reel of Great Moments, check out these badass animations by Zeebashew!

The main cast of characters are:
Walnut Dankgrass (the k is silent), a half elf druid with animal issues
K’thriss Drow’b, a drow warlock who may ormay not be in debt with an Eldritch horror
Donaar Blitzen, a narcissistic dragonborn cleric
Rosie Beestinger, a frickin little old lady badass halfling monk
she is THE BEES KNEES. I love her. she’s great.
And really, all the characters are A+, and Jerry Holkins makes a good DM, too.

WATCH THE SHOW AND COME TALK TO ME. Let’s create some beautiful headcanons together <3.

Kiesha’ra Series Reference

The Kiesha’ra Series, young-adult fantasy books by Amelia Atwater-Rhodes, was something I read in middle school. Everyone’s a shapeshifter, and the shapeshifters are divided into familial clans. The snakes are at war with some of the birds, but then there’s an arranged marriage made to make peace. That’s the setup of the first book, and each book thereafter sort of deals with the relationships and political problems in their combined society.

The books were short (or at least, I read them very quickly back then) and had interesting worldbuilding. It had some het romance but it didn’t feel overstated. Or maybe I just had a bigger tolerance for it back then, I dunno. I’ve reread some of it now, and it definitely has it’s pros and cons. And it’s something I wanted to see more enriched worldbuilding with.

Since deciding to create an AU of the series for the Yogs/Hats fandom for my own personal enjoyment/interest, I’ve done some research- which has proved pretty much futile on the internet. Atwater-Rhodes and her community used to have a forum and wiki set up that included troves of information from the books and the author herself. These websites have been defunct since 2015 (and inaccessible on the Wayback Machine), and have never been restored. The only sources I’ve been able to find are a couple of wiki pages and the books themselves.

So, to fill in the gaps for my own understanding/worldbuilding/fandom-use, I’ve compiled an informal, unofficial Google docs reference. This includes the shapeshifter types, their fashion and personalities, their societies and other cultural information created by/written into the world by Atwater-Rhodes. It is intended only as an informal reference for fandom-aligned use.

It is possible that Atwater-Rhodes has detailed more into the world in the books she’s published since Wyvernhail in 2007, and there could be gaps in understanding between my archiving and what was originally on her wiki.
Keeping that in mind, my reference extends majoritively to part of the Kiesha’ra series- Hawksong, Snakecharm, and Falcondance- but loosely takes the events of the entire series (including Wolfcry and Wyvernhail) into account. So. Spoilers, you know?

Access “The Informal, Unoffical Kiesha’ra Series Reference” [Here]
(Currently in progress, as of 3/26/17)